Knowing best
"I had a breakthrough this morning," I told her as she accepted my WhatsApp video call.
"Tell me?" she asked.
I had woken up around six, with a vivid video playing in my mind. I was so excited because, in the dream, my husband and I were walking slowly—his ankle still healing—out of his hometown. It was still dark when we began, but soon, the most beautiful sunrise unfolded before us. The sky turned a brilliant blue, white clouds drifting across it, and before long, we arrived at a sunlit farm just outside of town. As we approached, an arrogant colleague stood there, inviting and welcoming us.
"And then?" she urged, curiosity in her voice.
I sighed. "Then I fell asleep again. I was too tired to get out of bed this morning—it feels like I can sleep for a whole week," I confessed.
"But then I dreamt again," I added quickly. This time, the farm and everything around me turned pitch dark, with so many stairs to climb. I couldn't find my way home. Suddenly, you appeared in the dream, and you and your daughter took over the deep connection I had with my husband. I was left feeling aching, annoyed, frustrated, and jealous.
"So what do you think God is saying to you?" she queried.
"That's why I called you!" I said, exasperated. "My 'husband' in the dream also refers to my Heavenly One. I know He's showing me that He was leading me into a beautiful new day, but because I listened to my pride and arrogance, my path took a completely different direction."
She hesitated. "But what do you mean?" she asked, slightly frustrated, struggling to follow my reasoning.
"Let me explain," I followed. "Over the weekend, I decided that since you were taking a school holiday, I could too, to make it a business owner’s holiday.' And so, I took what I called a 'well-deserved break'—because I was tired, because life owed me, because I'm my own boss, and I make the rules.
"But it didn't turn out to be as fun as I thought it would be," I admitted. "We all know the laws written on our hearts. We know that if we don’t work, we can’t eat. We know that what we sow, we reap. We know that when we ignore His soft instructions, we resist His Spirit and quench Him. I could justify my choices on Monday, but by yesterday, I was completely uncomfortable—reluctant, unwilling, sluggish, and filled with guilt. I realized that my so-called 'break' had been nothing but arrogant laziness, and procrastination. And then, I started comparing myself to you and your world, and jealousy crept in. It all started with self-indulgence and ended in confusion."
"Oh, how I love our King! He walks with me, showing me how my own pride and arrogance deceive me—luring me into indulgence and then trapping me in misery." I exclaimed.
"But today was different," I raved. "After being honest with my Heavenly Husband, I asked Him for tasks and direction throughout the day, and oh, how I enjoyed every single one! Living for Him is so much fun."
I smiled. "One of my tasks was writing a description of my area for investors, and with each word, my gratitude grew. I never want to listen to myself again, I don't know best.
Our King is full of life and love, and He takes our hand, leading us into a brand-new day— so let's choose to follow."
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